Still feel sick. Nauseated. Even just walking across the room is miserable. Hate it.
I miss Henry. The last time I slept in this bed he was here with me. I don't like that he's not now. I'm lonely & miss him.
I hope this is a 24 hour bug I have and tomorrow I will feel better.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
What's the DEAL??
Jeeze o, jeeze o, jeeze o pizza. THIRD time this week I've fallen asleep sitting up AND with the computer in my lap. This is killin my neck. If I didn't know any better, I'd say this is my body's way of telling me I need some rest.
What an interesting week I've had thus far.... but it's also been extremely productive. Got my mother to the doctor's again and started some new antibiotics. Got my Dad to a doctor and had some small skin cancer's removed from both of his ears. Got Henry to a new doctor and started him on some new meds. I couldn't be more thrilled for all of them.
I'm excited about this weekend, especially about Friday. Henry is coming over to spend the day with me, and then I'm going to cook for him and have him stay the night. It's becoming more and more difficult to NOT fall asleep next to him every night. We're working to rectify that, but it couldn't come soon enough. I miss him so much it's painful every night and most definitely in the morning when I wake up. He and I should be beside each other. It's just that simple.
Ok, I'm falling asleep again as I type this. I know Henry is reading this now and I hope he appreciates that I pushed aside temptation to just shut down my laptop and actually WROTE something on my blog. I know it's been days. I've just not felt quite up to it lately. Hell, I hardly have even updated my facebook or my twitter. I'm going to try to do better at all three, but you know, sometimes life gets in the way of that.... and I'll be honest. I kinda like that it does. :)
What an interesting week I've had thus far.... but it's also been extremely productive. Got my mother to the doctor's again and started some new antibiotics. Got my Dad to a doctor and had some small skin cancer's removed from both of his ears. Got Henry to a new doctor and started him on some new meds. I couldn't be more thrilled for all of them.
I'm excited about this weekend, especially about Friday. Henry is coming over to spend the day with me, and then I'm going to cook for him and have him stay the night. It's becoming more and more difficult to NOT fall asleep next to him every night. We're working to rectify that, but it couldn't come soon enough. I miss him so much it's painful every night and most definitely in the morning when I wake up. He and I should be beside each other. It's just that simple.
Ok, I'm falling asleep again as I type this. I know Henry is reading this now and I hope he appreciates that I pushed aside temptation to just shut down my laptop and actually WROTE something on my blog. I know it's been days. I've just not felt quite up to it lately. Hell, I hardly have even updated my facebook or my twitter. I'm going to try to do better at all three, but you know, sometimes life gets in the way of that.... and I'll be honest. I kinda like that it does. :)
Thursday, February 17, 2011
ugh.
long day
hard day
stressed
at my limit
need a break
feeling unappreciated
tired
not feeling well
need a break
not myself
hard day
stressed
at my limit
need a break
feeling unappreciated
tired
not feeling well
need a break
not myself
Monday, February 14, 2011
Sunday Night. Posting from my Blackberry. Had THE best time with Henry from Sat evening until this evening when I had to leave. :( I didn't want to. It actually hurts to be away from him, especially at night. I just received a call from my cousin in Maine, who is young. (21) and impressionable. She is struggling w life right now and I feel so badly for her. She kept begging for me to come see her. Broke my heart. I'll have to elaborate on my weekend w Henry and the sweet and touching gifts he got for me.... But I'll do that tmrw. I'm worn out and have a long day tmrw.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Friday..what i know..
On this (very late) Friday night... what I know for sure is...
...that this has been an extremely stressful week for me and I wasn't sure I would make it to today without having a meltdown.
...that when I see my Dad & Mom express their love for each other , it warms my heart. Dad had flowers sent to her today because she had doctor's appt on Monday & won't be here to get them. I really believe they perked up her entire day.
...that I can hardly keep my eyes open at this point, but I know if I don't write this Henry will let me know right off the bat I messed up his coffee/blog reading time.
...I'm wicked excited to see Henry tomorrow and we are going to have a blast! We're taking Quint to the Cheesecake Factory and then to a movie... and I'm hoping we'll pop in Barnes & Noble. I don't think any one of us would pass up a book store!
What I know to be true right now is that I cannot wait at the end of our night tomorrow to go back to Henry's house and get to fall asleep in his arms. And knowing that when I wake up, he'll be the first person to wish me good morning and tell me they love me... and I will do the same for him. What I also know for sure is... I want that to be an everyday thing as soon as we can.
...that this has been an extremely stressful week for me and I wasn't sure I would make it to today without having a meltdown.
...that when I see my Dad & Mom express their love for each other , it warms my heart. Dad had flowers sent to her today because she had doctor's appt on Monday & won't be here to get them. I really believe they perked up her entire day.
...that I can hardly keep my eyes open at this point, but I know if I don't write this Henry will let me know right off the bat I messed up his coffee/blog reading time.
...I'm wicked excited to see Henry tomorrow and we are going to have a blast! We're taking Quint to the Cheesecake Factory and then to a movie... and I'm hoping we'll pop in Barnes & Noble. I don't think any one of us would pass up a book store!
What I know to be true right now is that I cannot wait at the end of our night tomorrow to go back to Henry's house and get to fall asleep in his arms. And knowing that when I wake up, he'll be the first person to wish me good morning and tell me they love me... and I will do the same for him. What I also know for sure is... I want that to be an everyday thing as soon as we can.
Ritz Crackers, Nana, & Late Night Snacks
There are a lot of things in life that remind us of another time. Something that happened in our past. Tonight because of a late night snack craving I was having, I was thrust into my childhood and memories of my Nana. She passed away several years ago, but there are times when I have such a strong memory of her.
When I younger and spent 2 weeks a summer with her in Dallas, if I was to get up late and wanted a snack she would prepare me a few slices of sharp cheddar cheese, slices of an apple, and a few Ritz Crackers. This may seem like an odd mixtures of taste and textures, but put them all together and its a winning combination. As a child, I felt this was a very grown up snack and always felt like a 'big girl' when she and I would sit at the dinning room table and share this snack.
As I sit here and enjoy my late night snack, I think back to Nana and how much I really miss having her in my life.
She was sharp as a tack and as witty as they come. And a bit of a smartass. Now that I think about it, she reminds me of someone.... hmmmm. :) She was also one of the smartest and most talented people I have ever come in contact with. I am certain, without a doubt, that I got almost all of my creativity from her. I hope she can see me from where she is and is proud of me. For all I have done in my life and the woman I have become.
When I younger and spent 2 weeks a summer with her in Dallas, if I was to get up late and wanted a snack she would prepare me a few slices of sharp cheddar cheese, slices of an apple, and a few Ritz Crackers. This may seem like an odd mixtures of taste and textures, but put them all together and its a winning combination. As a child, I felt this was a very grown up snack and always felt like a 'big girl' when she and I would sit at the dinning room table and share this snack.
As I sit here and enjoy my late night snack, I think back to Nana and how much I really miss having her in my life.
She was sharp as a tack and as witty as they come. And a bit of a smartass. Now that I think about it, she reminds me of someone.... hmmmm. :) She was also one of the smartest and most talented people I have ever come in contact with. I am certain, without a doubt, that I got almost all of my creativity from her. I hope she can see me from where she is and is proud of me. For all I have done in my life and the woman I have become.Friday, February 11, 2011
right now... i know.
This is what I know for sure... right now.
... that I miss Henry.
...that's I'm finding it more and more difficult to not fall asleep every night in his arms or wake up every day being held by him.
...that my 39th year is moving by way fast, too fast.
...that I need a nap.
...that I don't understand the inner workings of facebook and it's frustrating to me.
...that i STILL need a new phone. And so does my dad.
...that I'm scared. And happy. And exctied about my future.
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